(f)lying to you is a river of sin

reveries of slow woe gush within a cupcake cryosphere of godiva slopped guillotines of other lives left past, oceans so still in amniotic arctics as cabernet wineries, and oh how i've lived always as someone wanting something more before i knew i held it. pills drugged me so dizzy, fucked in, fucked out, all within the orbit of a snow globe wasteland where a loved winter once stood as best remembered they should in choke chains captured by hubble scope glows in ruthless worlds once spent. can only bid you farewell resisting the shy phone calls to be doped and fucked just to know myself a little better than i was before, celebrating the best of us as an astronaut in candlelights that won't bloom in space, but i still dream waltz along the vinyl spin of saturn's rings not so far from here playing a song of eloped evergreens in another life we'll never know. firefly twinkles pour as swallowtail flutters sutured only by red threads tied to my body so colorless now, keep me blush in veinous flush, i'm alive after all even if i often don't want to be, yet i know there is something better to be found in a starscape i belong.

let me seize the light and i'll find a way.